Rambling and procrastinating

Yesterday I was due for a medical checkup at work! They do this kind of thing yearly and it only takes like twenty minutes or so, but I had ignored the couple emails for people pending to take it, until they reached out directly on Teams.

I decided to stop procrastinating and go immediately. Blood pressure, vision, the usual stuff. There was nothing new for me: No drugs, no drinking, no diabetes, no allergies, no nothing. Bad eyesight but good glasses to counter that. The only real problem which I already know, is that I’m overweight.

I’m like fiftheen kilos above the “ideal”, that’s five more kilos since I wrote about my issue with snacking, so it’s clear that just writing about it isn’t enough, and that pretending the problem doesn’t exist and ignoring it will do nothing.

First thing I’ll do is cancel my gym subscription—I’ve been giving them free money for pretty much a whole year. It just doesn’t work for me. I keep talking about cycling or running, but I barely do it once a week—if at all. I need to stick to something and commit.

Countless times have I heard about the friction concept, how the path of least resistance should be the one that lead towards a healthier lifestyle. Making little changes to ensure that going that way is simply better.

But there are just too many things in my current path of least resistance that are not doing that. Tastier, less healthy foods, snacks at work, on my way home, or at home, and whatever else. I keep stumbling on less than ideal steps, and I keep taking them. Worst of all, I end up putting up with the “friction” to do things that aren’t ideal, there’s just not enough of it, being lazy and eating snacks is worth the price.

There are some things I’d be willing to change in theory, and there are many others that I can’t see myself doing anytime soon.

It’s weird how I am so okay with tracking every minute of my gaming, and every page I read of my books, and yet the idea of counting calories seems absolutely loathsome to me.

When it comes to excercise I guess calisthenics has an appeal for me. I just want to move my body, not worrying about weights and equipment. But then I don’t want to get on the floor to do some push-ups, but I also don’t want to buy a mat or do them in bed. Why amd I such a diva about it? I don’t know.

I always end up finding a way around getting the work done, or simply choosing to do nothing at all. Some sacrifices must be made somewhere—how many times have I said that already? I wonder.

At least I am thankful that this is the only health-related issue I have going on, but if I keep going on this direction, more issues may follow.

In case you are curious, the reason my cycling has been inconsistent lately is incredibly simple and easy to fix: I just need to inflate my tires again. I should be doing it every couple of weeks or so, but if I miss a day I end up procrastinating about it.

It’s always procrastination, when it comes to health or planning cool projects or writing something more than these blogs or doing something to meet-up with others and go outside my comfort zone!

A completely unrelated but still positive change that I’m kind of proud of: I’m actually flossing my teeth now! It’s something I pretty much never used do, but I find it to be entertaining enough while listening to a podcast or something, so that’s cool, it’s only been like two days, but the fact that I can even see myself still doing it in the future must mean something, right?

Maybe I’ll forget today and I’ll leave it for later and that later will never come again, until it does, for another two days.

Okay this is starting to sound kind of miserable. Let’s go through the bad stuff then in a list: I am overweight, I haven’t gone cycling in two weeks, I keep buying snacks, I have paid for the gym for nothing…

Now, let’s go through some positives, for a change here. My weeknotes mention quite a bit of those but still, let’s recap.

I did play a bunch of Badminton last Sunday, I started to floss my teeth, I have read daily and consistently, I have kept up with my Bible reading plan too!, I was visited by an old friend yesterday, I can walk and run and use stairs and move pretty well…

Honestly I’m doing okay, just another episode of me wanting to change things, and maybe it would be nice to do so and challenge myself, but it’s not the end of the world.

Procrastination isn’t the best, there are definitely problems, I am still young! I should take advantage of that. Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein when she was eighteen, did you know?

Sometimes I think about my friends reading this, especially those online that are older, that have kids and struggles beyond mine, this must be so silly to them. Funnily enough, I think the same of the younger friends I have IRL, who are too worried about grades and studies. Such is life.

This has been day 68 of #100DaysToOffload